So I have these nights sometimes where I just lie in bed and think about everything that is wrong with my life. I break down and cry and can only think about how much better my life could be. i make lists like you’re not pretty enough, you’re not talented enough, you’re not smart enough, you’re not exciting enough etc. and I just cry and cry until I finally fall asleep and when I wake up in the morning life just goes on. I think I come off as a very happy person and I’m pretty sure only one person knows that this happens and tonight they aren’t answering me. I don’t know what triggers it but tonight is one of those nights. I just want someone to hold me and tell me they love me, that everything is going to be okay, that I’m good enough and just scratch my back as I fall asleep. I just want everything to get better.